And like magic, 7 days after chemo *poof* I start to feel better again.....
ok, well this time wasn't exactly like magic. The last few days have been rough. Rougher than I was anticipating and rougher than I had expected for my last round. Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday I was slowly feeling worse each day. WAIT A MINUTE why I am feeling worse?! Wednesday I barely made it out of bed. All I wanted to do was go to the grocery store, and I couldn't even muster up the energy to do that. I'll be honest, I was getting worried. I should start to feel better by Wednesday...but on Wednesday night I could barely make it to bed fast enough after dinner. I was frustrated....hanging by a thread emotionally. I was trying to grin and bear it since THIS IS THE LAST TIME EVER(!) I had to feel this way...but I had a lump in my throat all day and just wanted this all to be over and to start to feel better again.
Thursday morning I woke up and hmmmmmm I think I feel better? It's tough in the mornings sometimes because I am still groggy from all the sleep aids (that don't work) that I take the night before. I had to rush out the door for a 9am massage appointment, so didn't put much thought into it other than trying to concentrate and drive. The massage was unfortunately a little painful because on another unfortunate note, peripheral nueropathy hit fast hard and all the sudden this week. My finger tips, toe tips and bottoms of my feet were numb and painful (how can something be numb and painful!?) and slowly getting worse by the day. Ella had been working on it to try and make the symptoms disappear and I have been ramping up by L-Glutamine consumption (which is supposed to help). So, jury is still out on whether it is getting better.....I haven't given up hope yet. I am just hoping that the sudden arrival does not mean permanent residence.
After the massage, I met up with a family member for coffee...and wait a minute, I am actually starting to feel better. I was starting to feel energized again. I actually got to make a trip to the grocery store (small victories!) and not feel like I had completely run out of gas by the time I got home.
And this morning, Friday, I feel even better than yesterday. Starting to get it all back again....looking forward to a holiday weekend at the beach with family. Because there is pretty much nothing that beach air can't cure....
